Im not blessed, I am begreated

Soooo, not so many changes these days. Just same old boring cold I cant stand Christmas December. But it is a new moon in Sagittarius, and Iv made definite intentions this month. After receiving much information on on words and their true meanings I have  decided to take heed to them. I have always asked to be blessed and I have realized that I have been very blessed; that is (being less). I have been asking greater power or entities(God/Goddess) for help (hell people) or that they grant or provide for me that which I have not received, provided, or created for myself. I think by asking to be blessed I have said that I am less than and I need them to bless me or grant favor in my life by some higher power. By doing and saying this I have given my power away. I now reclaim my power. I had been wounding deep inside that if I'm so blessed why is it so hard to be as great as I know and feel I am. Why has it been such a struggle to receive what I ultimately desire and know I deserve in my life.

When I came across the the book Code to the Matrix, on the website TheResistance. It went through many words and their roots and how they have been used against us. Although I don't agree with everything much of it did resonate with me. Especially about the word blessed( be less) So to reverse the effects of this word I now claim I am begreated. I deny blessings and receive begreatings. I know and feel this to be true and right, because I am not less than any but instead I am great as all that is.

I look at it like this; I have to realize who I am, and I choose who I am, and I choose greatness in all I desire to be and do. That is I am the great god/goddess, goddess being and god doing is all in me and every part of the Universe. So to all other Gods and Goddesses that are and every were, I am their little sister becoming God/Goddess and I am not less than them just not yet as old or evolved as them. So they are to serve me as big brothers and sister should do their younger siblings. As we all know we don't always have good relationships with our siblings. So as below so above. If I use my below life as a  reflection of my above life and equate the relationship I have with my physical sister and brothers with my spiritual sister and brothers then I see we have some forgiving, healing, and loving to do. I am 28 they are 49 to 56 I equate this age difference to the difference in evolution between me and my God/Goddess sisters and brother. In my physical life my sisters and brother have not served me well,  they have served just not in the best way. Iv learned and experience a lot of FUCKED UP SHIT through them and pain and hurt that I dont feel Iv deserved. Since I do think we go through all things for a reason I must of deserved this from a past life Iv not yet remembered, but its ALL GOOD because it has made me tough and forgiving. So again they have served me just not in the best way. So now I intend to receive the begreating I deserve, and that is all the love, power, and wisdom that my sibling God/Goddesses are and shall serve and share with me here and now. I am them and they are me, I love them and they love me I KNOW, so lets be-loved. I am open to all and always they are and come that the Universe shall support that is of Absolute good; I Am Begreated, I thank all.

I am Free and Clear

So coming through these ruff days I am hoping to have cleared and freed my self. Not only that, I am intending to actually be Free and Clear in every sense of the words and their meanings. Through continuous ups and downs in my moods and attitudes I think I have cleared them. Being so intruded with my up and downs in feeling and thought has helped me realize that I have been causing these ruff times, ultimately I realize I need to live in Balance and I think Ill start with being free and clear. When I say free and clear that is when any time I encounter the police I am always free and clear, non effected by them. Some how some way I am always free and clear no matter the circumstances. So I am also ultimately free and clear in ALL WAYS and ALWAYS.  When I desire and intend to do or be what I want to I am free and clear, non hindered and always able. This is important for me to accomplish, as I am a Libra and my element is air. Air is ultimately a free and clear substance; literally. As a Libra, the scales I have to balance and be balanced so I do need to know and be free and clear.
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So how shall I be free and clear...............................................I think Ill just be then do.

Ruff Days

So the last couple of day have been kind of ruff.  Nothings that different, Its just some times I feel like I'm going crazy and cant take this bull shit world any more. I think I may be wining like a child a bit but there is a child in all of us right. I want to be free to do what I want, when I want, and how I want. I really don't think that's too much to ask. Why I think this I don't even know;  just came to me I don't think this I feel this, this is how I feel correction! Then why do I not think this. I think I don't think this is because I think everything in the physical world says that I have to be a billionaire to be free to do what I want, when i want, and how I want. And shame on me, I have chosen to believe what the world has said. So I now intend to change this belief into I am free to do, be, and receive what I want, when I want, and how I want. Whooo and I hope to keep this belief and know it to be true some how some way. Thank you Universe.

Although I say this now and really truly desire to believe it, there is a But. There seems to be a really thick line between believing what I desire to be true and real not just all in my head and seeing and experiencing it to be true in the physical. It is so hard to see some times but I know that I will see, it must be what living is for.

Hi Every One,
I am here now, to share me, know me, and be me.