Ruff Days

So the last couple of day have been kind of ruff.  Nothings that different, Its just some times I feel like I'm going crazy and cant take this bull shit world any more. I think I may be wining like a child a bit but there is a child in all of us right. I want to be free to do what I want, when I want, and how I want. I really don't think that's too much to ask. Why I think this I don't even know;  just came to me I don't think this I feel this, this is how I feel correction! Then why do I not think this. I think I don't think this is because I think everything in the physical world says that I have to be a billionaire to be free to do what I want, when i want, and how I want. And shame on me, I have chosen to believe what the world has said. So I now intend to change this belief into I am free to do, be, and receive what I want, when I want, and how I want. Whooo and I hope to keep this belief and know it to be true some how some way. Thank you Universe.

Although I say this now and really truly desire to believe it, there is a But. There seems to be a really thick line between believing what I desire to be true and real not just all in my head and seeing and experiencing it to be true in the physical. It is so hard to see some times but I know that I will see, it must be what living is for.